Happy Saturday night! I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve stopped and started versions of this post. Isn’t it funny how it’s easier to write about running when running is going well?
Overnight oats in the training room for the millionth day in a row
So: the foot pain. It’s hard to believe that this has been going on for almost three months. It seems like I haven’t trained consistently since January. The past two weeks have been exponentially worse; I even developed extensor tendonitis because I was compensating for the toe/bunion pain in my stride and foot strike. After about 43 miles and some cross training the week before last, last week’s training included 7 normal miles, 15 miles on the Alter-G, and 290 minutes of cross training. This week included 37.5 miles and about 205 minutes of cross training. Today’s run/bike combination was horrible. Can you see the continuation of the mileage rollercoaster?
Every single day involves at least one trip to the training room for warm whirlpool, rolling, laser, mobility, ultrasound, ice, etc. I’ve been biking and swimming ridiculous distances. Each training session is played by ear; my coach will text me saying, “How much pain are you in? Do you want to work out today?”
New single-session bike distance PR
I met with an orthopedist on Thursday, but unfortunately we didn’t come up with any other solutions. “Yep, according to the x-rays, your bunions are pretty severe. You can live in the training room for the rest of your athletic career, or if the pain is getting too bad to the point where you think it’s limiting your ability to train, you might want to consider bunion surgery.”
I’m also in the middle of the dental implant process, feeling hideous, and there are insurance issues and family medical/emotional problems.
As you can imagine, last week was filled with some breakdowns…
The combination of training uncertainty and constant pain is really taking its toll mentally and physically. Also, getting up at the crack of dawn every day makes me feel really isolated from the “normal college student” lifestyle of sleeping in past 6 am, staying up later than 10 pm, and having some semblance of fun. Not that I want the normal college student lifestyle, but it’s really hard when you can’t relate to anyone. Most of my teammates don’t have to be in the training room twice a day and wake up at the ass crack of dawn every single day. My NARP (non-athletic-regular-people) friends stare at me like I have three heads if I mention my daily routine. I’m sorry for the negativity- I’m just being honest that months of this nonsense is getting to me 😦
I also really do not want to have to go the surgery route. Bunion surgery takes months to recover from, more months to get back into training, and there’s no guarantee that it’ll even be successful. As I would have to get the surgery on both feet, I would literally be in a wheelchair, unable to walk, for a month.
Stationary-biking my life away
Okay, now that my emotional rant is (mostly) over, I’m going to try to focus on the positives! Even though it really sucks not being able to fully do what I love and contribute to my team, it’s so important to keep in mind that life is about more than just running. Obviously as a collegiate athlete, the majority of your lifestyle revolves around your sport and school. But there are so many aspects to life that it’s easy to find things that are important outside running!
SO, without further ado, here are some positive things that are happening in life:
- Recent weather has been absolutely gorgeous. I went to a nearby creek today to watch the sunset with my roommate, her brother, his roommate, and their dog. We saw a goldendoodle puppy while we were there!
- My mom and her husband came down last week, and I went out to brunch with them and we always have the best conversations.
- We took the recruits to see Beauty and the Beast last week, and even though you know I’m a cynical human being, I’m also addicted to Disney movies and songs.
- I sat down to the piano for the first time in months and have my heart set on playing Go the Distance
- I’m currently writing multiple articles for Spoon University and loving it!
- The business school is the most beautiful building on campus, and I’m lucky enough to have access to it.
- The weight room is making me #toostrong 😉
- Scandal, joggers, and hot lemon water to end the night
Wow, there are so many aspects of life to be grateful for! School is hard, running is hard, and this crazy schedule of mine is hard. We shall see if I’m able to race this coming weekend at our big home invitational. But mindfulness is important. Here is a cheesy motivational quote, complete with a pug: